A Letter

The GF was here this afternoon. I've gotten used to being treated (in regards to emotions) as though i'm a friend, not a girlfriend and accepted that this is how it's going to be, indefinately. Just when i've managed to get my head around the whole thing she says; "i've got a letter for you."

I was quite enjoying being emotionally neglected! It made me feel as though i had very little responsibility in the relationship, sure, i worried a little that we weren't sing from the same hymn sheet but all i had to do was nod when she'd say "i know" in a conversation and that would be it. What could be on that piece of paper? Anything! It could even be those dreaded bloody words, those three little words which i've been swilling around in my head for a while now. Then what would happen?! Oh gosh, i think i'd have to do what a girl does best when she's overcome with emotions and is lost for words; cry.

I don't think it'll have those three words though, but it might have a version of them, or talk about the concept of it, but not those words. I want to know what it says now! But it's more curiosity, not longing. I want her to want to show me, the contents don't matter. The concept and the principle of her opening up, it almost brings the relationship to a different level, from a mutually-exclusive-messing-around-for-fun relationship to a your-girlfriend-is-a-confidant kind of thing. And thats a big step.