"Taking the piss"

Literally.

He does my fucking head in. I took a picture of him taking a piss in an alley. It's going to be part of my protfolio, and no matter how much anyone else moans or takes the piss, this portfolio is going to happen. And it's going to be hideously beautiful. Hidious. Because that's what this life is; this life that we lead. This life that i lead with him, whilst with him. It's hideously beautiful. I've fixed myself a drink. Whisky, straight up.

I've one more case to revise. I don't understand him. And he doesn't get along with Hg or anyone else. All but Hg, as they don't know him very well, think he is harmlessly nice. He is a fucked up mess. But..and i'm not going to lie now, he is a mess. But that is what i do, as a person. I attract fucked up people, not because i try, but simply as it happens. I attract them and i want to somehow fix them, but, inevitably, it is never as simple as that. I surround myself with fucked up people to feel..maube perhaps normal. Becuase i know i'm not normal. I need a girlfriend, or at least a girl to shag.

We were out in the Gay Village, which, honestly, is more of a street, tonight, and i got talking to this girl. She was very nice, she was a nurse, and most definately had her heart slap bang in the place it needs to be. She was wonderful, and so was her partner. I am going to go to the next Gay Club meet and "try it on" with someone. As i am sick of this. There was this bartender, who i've spoken to before..perhaps mayber flirtatiously [i don't know as i was rather pissed at the time and my affections were focussed on another] and i gave her the change of two drinks from £10. She did some glass collecting/talking to her friends afterwards. But i didn't talk to her. Despite her being perhaps only 2 feet away. I'm a pussy when it comes to girls. When i'm pissed, however, that's a different story. I don't know how that one happened.

We are going to be; The Fairy's Blood Vomit. As a compromise. I wanted to be The Blood Vomit Fairy's but Li didn't. It still has Fairy in it, so it's not that awful. God knows why he wants to have blood vomits in our band name. We went on a little Gay Village pub crawl tonight. I am so going to shag a girl from the LGBT, otherwise i might just die via necrosis of the clitoris.