Friends

As i've grown more independant, the issue of having "friends" has become less and less important to me. But, by friend, i don't mean those who you truly care about and would go far out of your way to help, i mean..the plastic kind. Those who, somehow, seem to be part of your social group but who you don't particularly like or wish to speak to. But who you save face by talking to when you're alone so you don't feel like a loser.

The number of those people has drastically decreased. Infact, they are non-existant. And almost as a by-product, i don't really talk to that many people during my lessons. I feel it most in Chemistry, where i sit at the back a space apart from a dopy girl who is, unfortunately, set to get an E. I don't mind, infact, its quite liberating. It's just strange how unaffected i've become by the lack of someone to cling on to. Biology it is less so as there is always a conversation to join, but i have absolutely nothing in common with the people in Chem.

I guess this is a positive thing. It's the same at waitrose, although to a lesser extent. I do try and make conversation with people sometimes, if possible. Eugh. Waitrose. I have to work again tommorow. And i really don't want to. It's driving me fucking mad. But the money is good, and by the time summer comes running around, i should have at least a grand saved for fun and debauchery.