At Home

I feel as though being at home, living in a small family unit, is isolating. Living in halls is so much fun, the corridoor format allows you to wander from one to the other and knock on peoples doors, sit in rooms, chat for hours, watch films, smoke many cigarettes, all whilst in your PJ's and socks. When at home, stuck in this house, i have to leave to make an effort to go out and talk to people. And that sucks. What sucks even more is that He has left for University, accidentally. She doesn't have lectures until the begining of february but left today. She is a bit of a slow one. But i love her to bits. And she's buggered off so i have no-one to pester! Well, i do, but they're all that little bit further away.

This week is going to be for revision. Oh no! I only have Monday - Friday before i go back. How sad. Truly. That is actually a rather sombre and sad thought. Even though i was just moaning about being home and the lack of social interaction. I'm going to miss being home an unbelievably large amount. Nothing beats a house, a sofa, a full fridge, food being made for you, your mum..everything. But university will be VERY fun.

Since breaking up with the former-GF i haven't slept with anyone, this is normally fine but reasonably late at night the seedier sky channels show programmes like "sexectera" and "porn week." These don't usually interest me but there was a section on the cyber-dyke network, whilst watching it i actually got a little bit turned on. And i even went on the website. So desperate was i, i honestly considered paying the fee to watch porn. I didn't, obviously. But i considered it. That's how bad things have gotten. I need to have sex. There is a girl, but i've not slept with her before and..well..i'm a little scared.

We were supposed to meet up last week some time but she couldn't make it as she'd lost her purse and sounded ever so slightly devastated. I called her this evening but her phone went straight to voicemail..i may call her tomorrow. She's hot. And would be very, very, good.

I also created a Flickr account.